My journey to the Infinite

I gave up my fears! Can you?

My journey of life has always opened up new dimensions, teaching me to accept, learn and grow. It is simply fascinating. Many times, we are so engrossed in our own fixed thinking of right and wrong, that we even doubt our own growth potential. For me, however, that never happened. Fortunately, I started growing and loved experimenting, evolving, facing newer challenges, taking risks — all of which are needed for growth and self-development. I never needed to plan my journey. Rather I learnt from it. All I did was to keep squeezing my intelligence and my energies to deliver more.

But over last 8-10 years, I took a conscious decision to stop, then set my new trajectory. I have always been a very keen learner. Very inquisitive about new things, so my process of self- development and self-actualization, led me on the path of huge learning. It was a journey, that initially even I was not prepared to tread. I took time to understand, but then it became clear. This is also a time when I took trips to Bhutan. These were not simple tours, rather they were a part of my spiritual journey, from finite to infinite. The soft floating clouds across the towering mountain scape taught me lessons that even my decades of excellently structured job life could not teach.

I was completely lost in absorbing a new dimension to ‘Spirituality’ and the finite part of my journey gave way to infinite learning. I discovered a new state of matter, beyond the scope of solid, liquid and gas as written in Physics books. And that feeling started to take shape as I internalized it. But I was alone. Since I still had to complete a few tasks in the finite world, I needed a connect with that world too and then the transition would be complete. I needed help. Everyone does. I got the clouds, my Bhutan trips, the mountains, that impacted me spiritually. But I also needed to relate, share with souls. People who go out lecturing about spiritual journeys. But none understood my feelings. As luck would have it, I found souls who could relate, but they too could not leave their finite space. They loved living in their finite world of luxury and only lecture on spiritual journey, refusing to take the actual plunge in the search of infinity. I was prepared though.

But they were caught in the whirlpool of material world, they were not free. They were tied to so many inhibitions, of fear, of loss, of insecurities. They could not come with me. Maybe, someday, they will. I hence questioned myself why is it that people who travel intellectually, understand the value of spiritual integration with our finite world, but still cling to the social fabric that gives them comfort? Do they fear the unknown? They even doubt people like us who are ready to partake that spiritual path, doubt our intentions, as that helps them to justify their own selfish intentions to hold back. But for how long? The pull of the infinite is so strong, that trust me, very soon all shackles will break loose and make them free too.

Believe me, that day is not far. We will again join hands and be together. I am already on that path. Just tread it, else you will never know what you did not experience!